Authentic Self

Therapy homework can be taxing on the mind and the spirit. My current homework is getting to me but then again that is the point of therapy. Do you ever hold back your feelings? Have you lost someone in your life and held it in to spare others the pain. To be strong and be a rock for them rather than letting yourself grieve? Have you ever been made to …

So I’m over the hill, it was a hell of a climb!

It has been a while since I have allowed myself to post on social media beyond photos on Instagram and Twitter. I took a month away from Facebook at the advice of Dr. Lucci. I admit it has been a wonderful thing. I am going through many changes in my life and reflecting on empty relationships and toxic friendships. I’ve distanced myself from anyone that does not seem to really …

Endometriosis Awareness

I originally wrote this last year on FB. Endometriosis changes you, emotionally, mentally, and physically. But, you have the ability to take control of your life, it may take you a little longer to complete daily tasks. You may have “endo belly” and look a bit pregnant, but you can still wear that cute outfit and feel good about yourself. You can take a moment to cry, scream, and be …

And the gates were opened, the mind flooded.

Things for me have been very different for a year now. I have struggled each day with things that were buried in the past. Everyone by now knows I survived childhood sexual abuse and a brutal rape later in life. What happened to set all this off? What took place that opened those closely guarded walls/gates in my mind built up to protect me? A procedure/surgery last year that I …

The Best Sugar Cookies

It’s that time of the year! Here is one of our family traditions. We bake and decorate cookies together. Years ago I met a very wonderful woman, Katie. She was great with baking anything! She and I would spend winter days in her kitchen baking tons of goodies. She gave me this recipe and we have used it each year to make Sugar Cookies and Decorate with the kids. I …

Looking the Pain Bitch in the Eye

In all my time of living with pain, I’ve been rather lucky. I’ve not had the struggle of finding a decent doctor, nor have I been denied pain meds when in need. Many of those with chronic pain diseases have been denied medications and emergency care given with attitude. I have been very lucky. I’ve seen a few doctors that didn’t do a damned thing for the reason I was …

I hate my bitch and I said FUCK

Good evening everyone who visits my page and reads my blog entries. Normally I keep these as upbeat and positive as possible. No matter the amount of pain I am in, or how upset I may be I keep this as positive as I am able.  Why? I do not want to ever be seen as weak or whining. I do not want to depress or upset others. I want …

Girls, Before You Send That Racy Photo

When I was a teen we didn’t have the internet yet. No smart phone, no Facebook, and everyone I had in my life I knew face to face. Things have changed so much since introduction of the world-wide web and smart phone putting technology at our fingertips. So with new powers comes new responsibilities. Having a smart phone myself since the first droid came out, I love the ability to …